Things that should have come to surface.

Never blog after bloodtests

2010-01-11T10:55:00.000-08:00

Yeah, so I just got a bloodtest, again, so I'm like, hm, what better time to blog than when I don't have a brain...I mean the best stuff comes to me then. :P instead I ended up working on my latest song. Speaking of, I have to finish writing out the older ones soon 'cuz I promised someone I'd have that done much earlier than now, but that's okay, cuz i'm nearly done the one i needed to finish first. Odly enough I've been writing like, pop/punk-ish songs...which I never do. Much more into the classical/alternative/indie/acoustic/anything i like styles. :)
I suddenly lack inspiration to blog. I think this is due to the fact that I currently believe that I'm the only one reading my blog...the lack of comments assists that. Seriously, WHAT.

Optimisim is overrated-don't drop denial

2010-01-01T19:13:00.000-08:00

That's right.
Anyhow. No pre-written rants this time. Just off the top of my head, straight up, whatever.
What has 2009 taught us? Lets see, never write someone off completely, never have two plan A's or too much going on, and don't ever let a toddler lose in a graveyard. That's right. Balloons, flowers, toddler. Bad combo....that's about all I can remember atm.

Denial rocks when your in it. When you start trying to get out of it is when it sucks majorly. For me that means realizing exactly what I've been lying about and what I need to face. I hate it, cuz it kinda hurts.
Scratch that, it definitally hurts.
Denial also rocks 'cuz you can get whatever the hell you want or need. Denial's the best when you want something you can't/shouldn't have...then you just lie to yourself 'till you believe you don't want/need it. It's awesome untill you decide to stop lying, cuz that's not so healthy either. Then it's a pain in the ass, kinda like withdrawl I guess? Maybe not. Who knows. Not me. Of course.

I hate how life has so many risks. It sucks. Really. Like, really sucks. (oh really?) Yeah, really. (OHMYGOSH i'm talking to myself on my blog-_-)....meh, wateva i'm wierd I knew that anyhow. ANYHOW. Risks are anoying. (wait, why are they anoying) I think i didn't get enough sleep last night. (wait no, risks, they're anoying) right! (right) right. (....yeah)........ what was I saying? (i have no idea). Neither do I.
OK!

*because of the lack of brainz in my head, and the lack of thinking goin on here, I'm gona stop now. :) Ciao!

And again...

2009-12-28T14:46:00.001-08:00

I decided, randomly, to start blogging again. Just for the sake of getting my thoughts out there and for fun and cuz I enjoy it and haven't done that in a while. My bets are that once again I'll have maybe 3 readers at best & be talking to myself most of the time, which is what I excell at.
Warnings: I have terrible grammer, type like I talk, enjoy run-on sentances, and use "..." a lot.
This suffices as an intro, so for the rest of any posts I post, prepare to be either a) wierded out, 2) confused as hell, or c) deeply moved. C will never happen, so try a or b. I am aware that I said a-2-c, but the only other option was 1-b-3, so wtevs right?
I just found a bunch of random papers I wrote...rants/thoughts mostly. That's what happens when I clean my room. I get distracted (like now). Thought I'd just one or two of those up cuz they're funky.

The memories, those we love, those that haunt every living moment.
They all fade.
We beg them to leave,
We hope against hope that they never go away.
No matter of our wishes, they fade at will.

What was once burned into our ever-waking minds fades into the black hole we call oblivion.
That on which we spent countless restless nights in that much-dreaded, ever-longed for state when your best and worst memories intermingle with your closest fears & dearest wishes.
It all fades.
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Within every soul there is a demon & an angel at work.

She'll never leave you if you let her.
She'll drive a blade of ice into your very life-fire if you let her.

Turn your back, ignore her for one instant and your worst fears will become a reality.

Don't let curiosity overcome you-she'll catch you in her iron grasp & break every bone in your fragile body.

Never turn your back, never dare to not.

She'll spark a desire, if you let her, that was never there-was never meant to be.

Stay away from her.